I'm just feeling so blessed today. I was going to write last night about an occurrence, but then some things came up, and then something happened this morning to write about. So here we go...
Last night I went to see the school's musical production, and it was a wonderful evening at that. My friend and I went and we just absolutely enjoyed ourselves. Front row, we got to see and make eye contact with those we knew, and even those we didn't. It was such a wonderful night filled with laughter and enjoyment.
After the show we spoke to some people and congratulated them before leaving, and before parting for our rooms we ran into one of the cast members on his way upstairs and spoke with him for a bit. While we were talking, majors and courses came up and we were discussing how things become jobs and then they aren't always enjoyed in the same way. While this was happening I found out that before he came here, he had a scholarship to another college for a full ride to play soccer. He was all set to go when he busted his knee and had to have surgery, ending his ability to move forward in that direction and lost his scholarship. This was the path that led him here. He continued, however, to say how much happier he is here, and although it was a kick in the pants when it happened, it was the best thing.
To hear him talk about this made me feel so much better about my story, and though he started talking about his when I mentioned getting sick in passing, it made me really see how God works in different ways, and also to see how I am not alone. Though I knew that, of course, sometimes it's easily forgotten, and quite the pained reminder. I am in agreement with him, though, that this is the best thing that could have happened. I am so much happier here, and am working every day at living out the plan God has for me, as opposed to the ides I had for myself. It is bringing me so much joy, and though it definitely isn't "easy", it is right. And wonderful.
Yesterday I received a last-minute invitation to sing at service this morning, and it was just such a lovely experience. The way it works at this particular church is that a band gets together and leads in worship to praise God through music. There are also hymns dispersed throughout led by the organist, in different quantities depending on what is happening that Sunday. Today communion Sunday, so there was a lot of worship music. We got together this morning and rehearsed for maybe 45 minutes before service started, and stopped just as it began. Many of the songs I didn't know, but learned on the spot, and threw in harmonies wherever I could. It was a frightening and nervous experience to say the least, but it was so joyful and absolutely amazing to be a part of. It had been so long since I had the opportunity to just enjoy music in it's amazing capacity, and this week has brought me so much fulfillment in that way.
I found myself jealous last night of those in the show, remembering my days at that art and loving the feelings it stirred in me - okay, loving some of them ahah - but to see how the actors were so filled while they performed was such a wonderful thing to witness. And this morning, seeing how each of the members was so happy to be involved in this experience - regardless of this being established yesterday afternoon - was just so refreshing and overwhelming for me. In the best way possible.
Being nervous - in general - is something I have to work on, but regardless of that so evident flaw, they are still so welcoming and overwhelming (in both the positive and negative sense, sometimes) and it's amazing to see their kindness overflow to me and to so many others in such wonderful ways.
I just feel so blessed today, and I only ask that my cup continue to be filled so that I may work to pour out joy, love, and kindness onto others whom I meet in my day-to-day life. Though it can be a lot to see how much people love and care, it is also so wonderful to know that they do.
Thank-you, Lord, for blessing me today, and in this way.
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